OLDER But COLDER. Cattski Espina

Here's one of my favorite lifeblogs via blogspot... her page did alot of inspiration to me and the to cebuanos. kudos to you CATTSKI ESPINA..

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OLDER BUT NOT COLDER

A year ago, a couple of weeks before my birthday, I had a Jerry Maguire moment. I heard voices in my head. And, I’m not kidding, I remember I was close to considering it a slight case of schizophrenia. I couldn’t sleep, and as I laid motionless the voices kept going. The words got clearer and louder. So I decided to just get up, and write it all down. My own bunch of life’s instructions that was, as told by those weird voices one lucky night. I’m reminded about it now since in 45 minutes, I turn a year older. And I mean “OOOLDEER”. So I’m celebrating this moment by revisiting that post, I edited it a little bit. So here it is. Happy birthday to me! It’s a long way to go for this piece of work (ME) to be finished. Maybe that’s why I don’t feel old at all.


LET GO by Cattski Espina

(I wrote it in all-caps, hey, I was just following instructions, remember?)

LET GO.

THE LONG LIST OF GOOD STUFF ABOUT YOU CAN BE ERASED WITH JUST ONE BAD THING IN A SNAP. LET GO AND WORK ON YOURSELF INSTEAD AND HOPE THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE JUST MIGHT START A NEW LIST. TRY NOT TO RUIN IT THIS TIME. LET GO AND START AGAIN.

LET GO OF YOUR EGO. YES, YOU ARE A UNIQUE AND DISTINCT INDIVIDUAL BUT YOU’RE JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. IT’S A GIVEN THAT YOU’RE BETTER AT WHAT YOU DO THAN OTHERS BUT OTHERS ARE ALSO BETTER THAN YOU. OTHERS WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN YOU. SO DON’T GET AHEAD OF YOURSELF. YOU DON’T HAVE THAT MUCH TO PROVE.

LET GO.

THERE’S ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING. LET GO. ACCEPT THAT YOU SIMPLY CAN’T PLEASE EVERYBODY. IN FACT, THERE’S A BIG CHANCE SOME PEOPLE REALLY HATE YOUR GUTS AND THEY JUST WANT TO PUT YOU DOWN, OR WORSE, WANT YOU DEAD. DON’T BLAME THEM IF THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND YOU. WE’RE ALL WIRED DIFFERENTLY, SOME PEOPLE RUB AS THE WRONG WAY OR VICE VERSA. THAT’S JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS - NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT.

LET GO. BE HUMBLE. REMEMBER THAT RESPECT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE DEMANDED, IT IS GAINED. SO SHUT UP. TAKE A CORNER. AND STAY THERE. TIME OUT! TAKE A STEP BACK AND NEXT TIME YOU GET A CHANCE, REMEMBER TO LOVE MORE…, CARE MORE, AND LIVE MORE… PRACTICE COMPASSION. TRY TO MAKE IT UNCONDITIONAL. LET GO. AND AS SOON AS YOURE BACK ON YOUR FEET, EMBRACE LIFE. APPRECIATE THE GOOD THINGS.

LET GO. HEAL. DON’T TRY TO KILL YOURSELF. THE GREATEST ANSWER TO YOUR MISFORTUNE IS TO LIVE LIFE AS PASSIONATELY AS POSSIBLE. TRY NOT TO PICK ON THOSE WHO CAN NOT GRASP THE CONCEPT OF LIVING PASSIONATELY, INSTEAD, HOPE THAT YOU’LL INSPIRE THEM TO DISCOVER IT FOR THEMSELVES.

LET GO. SOME PEOPLE THINK THEY’RE DOING YOU A FAVOR BY GETTING INVOLVED IN YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. YOU CAN BE ANGRY BUT WHAT WILL THAT DO. DON’T BE ANGRY EVEN IF THEY JUST RUINED IT FOR YOU. LET IT GO. IT’S OKAY. YOU SIMPLY CAN NOT CONTROL THE THINGS AROUND YOU.

LET GO OF YOUR ADDICTIONS. STOP SMOKING. STOP DRINKING. SELF DESTRUCTION AIN’T COOL. STOP PUNISHING YOURSELF. STOP LOATHING YOURSELF. STOP BLAMING YOURSELF. WHAT’S DONE IS DONE. WAKE UP AND BRUSH IT OFF. LET GO, FORGIVE YOURSELF, FORGIVE THEM, AND MOVE ON.

LET IT GO. LET IT ALL GO. CRY IT ALL OUT IF YOU HAVE TO - WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH. CRY FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE HURT YOU AND WHO DID YOU WRONG - UNINTENTIONALLY OR OTHERWISE. BUT MOSTLY, CRY FOR THE PEOPLE YOU’VE HURT. CRY FOR THEIR PAIN, ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. AND THEN FORGIVE YOURSELF. FORGIVE YOURSELF EVEN IF OTHERS CAN’T FORGIVE YOU, YET.

LET GO THEN STOP CRYING. BREATHE.

YOU HAVE A GOOD HEART. USE IT. DON’T LET YOUR ANGER GUIDE YOU. STOP SULKING. GO GET SOME EXERCISE, RUN IN FIELDS OR GO TO THE GYM AND RELEASE YOUR ANGER THROUGH YOUR SWEAT. GET BACK ON YOUR YOGA PRACTICE, SO YOU CAN CLEAR YOUR CHAOTIC MIND, AGAIN AND AGAIN. LET GO. STOP THINKING TOO MUCH. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. BREATHE. DON’T NURTURE THE PAIN. IT’S USELESS. FEEL THE LOVE IN YOUR HEART. IT’S STILL THERE. YOU KNOW IT. SO UNRAVEL. SHARE. SHINE.

IF A GOOD SOUL COMES ALONG, APPRECIATE HIM OR HER. DON’T QUESTION AND ENVY. DON’T FAIL. IF SOMEONE GIVES YOU TOO MUCH, APPRECIATE IT AND DON’T FEEL GUILTY THAT YOU CAN’T GIVE ENOUGH IN RETURN. ALLOW KINDNESS INTO YOUR LIFE. EXPERIENCE IT. LIVE IT. AND DON’T DENY IT.

LET GO OF YOUR FEARS AND FACE THEM HEAD ON. TO LIVE IN FEAR IS NOT TO LIVE AT ALL, WE ALL KNOW THAT. DON’T WORRY. WORRY DRAGS YOU DOWN PRETTY BAD. IT MAKES YOU WEAK. SO DON’T.

LET GO OF YOUR SLIGHT SICKNESS CALLED REGRET. YOUR MISTAKES BROUGHT ABOUT A BUNCH OF LESSONS. AND YOU LEARNED. AND YOU’RE STILL LEARNING. AND YOU GAINED. AND YOU’RE STILL GAINING. NO REGRETS.

LET GO, TAKE A BREAK. TAKE STOCK. AND START AGAIN. GIVE YOUR HEART OUT TO EVERYONE WHO NEEDS IT. SMILE. STAY BEAUTIFUL. AND ENJOY BEING CALM FOR ONCE.

TALK BUT DON’T BE LOUD. SAY WHAT YOU MEAN, AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. BE SENSITIVE TO OTHERS. BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR WORDS. BITE YOUR TONGUE WHEN YOU’RE ANGRY. DON’T LOSE CONTROL. BE SUBTLE WHEN NECESSARY BUT STRAIGHTFORWARD IF NEED BE. TRUST YOURSELF MORE THAN YOU TRUST OTHERS. MOST OF ALL, BE HONEST. BE HONEST TO YOUR OWN TRUTH.

LET GO. TRY NOT TO CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT SAY AND THINK ABOUT YOU. JUDGEMENTS AND OPINIONS ARE PART OF LIFE. AND YOU ARE ENTITLED TO YOUR OWN. ACCEPT THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR IRRESPONSIBILITY. FEEL FREE TO BE HUMBLED AND TO BE EMBARRASSED. IT’S OKAY. YOU SIMPLY NEEDED A WAKE UP CALL. AND HERE YOU ARE TAKING IT, AND YOU’RE NOT HANGING UP. LISTEN. LISTEN ONCE AND FOR ALL.

STOP BELIEVING THAT PEOPLE DON’T LOVE YOU. OR THAT THEY ARE NOT CAPABLE OF LOVING YOU. THEY DO. BUT YOU’RE NOT LETTING THEM. YOU PUSH THEM AWAY. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. LOVE THE REST NEXT. YOU FIRST, OTHERS NEXT, AND ONLY IN THAT ORDER.

LET GO. LET GO AND WAIT. LEARN TO BE PATIENT. CONTROL YOUR RESTLESSNESS. DON’T BE ANXIOUS. ALLOW THINGS TO FALL INTO PLACE. RELAX. THE UNIVERSE IS ON YOUR SIDE. LET TIME PASS BUT DON’T WASTE IT. USE IT WELL. DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE. MAKE MIRACLES OUT OF YOUR MISERY. WHO KNOWS, JUST LIKE THAT, YOUR MISERY WILL BE OUT OF YOU.

LET GO. AND WHEN YOU’RE BETTER, TAKE CARE OF YOUR PRIDE. IT IS BOTH A GIFT AND A CURSE. IF YOU’RE NOT CAREFUL, IT WILL EXPLODE, UPFRONT AND IN YOUR FACE.

WHEN YOU’RE BETTER, DO VOLUNTEER WORK. GO BACK TO THE SPECIAL KIDS WHO NEED YOU. TEACH THEM ART. SING THEM SONGS. MAKE THEIR PARENTS HAPPY. USE YOUR ENERGY ON POSITIVE THINGS.

LET GO IF YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY.

FORGET ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO TOOK YOU WRONG. IT WAS PROBABLY YOUR FAULT. ACCEPT THAT YOU PUT YOURSELF IN THAT POSITION. AND THAT IT DOESN’T MATTER NOW. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU’RE LETTING GO, LETTING BE, AND LETTING LOVE TAKE OVER. ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE HAPPY. PUT THAT SMILE BACK ON YOUR FACE. LOOK AT THE MIRROR AND LOVE WHAT YOU SEE.

LET GO. SLEEP IT OFF. FOR NOW. GIVE YOUR MIND A REST. A RE-BOOT. TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY. ANOTHER CHANCE TO RE-CONNECT. ANOTHER DAY TO LIVE. AND LOVE. TO LIVE MORE AND LOVE MORE.

LET GO. PRAY. AND JUST LET GO. YOU STILL DESERVE TO FLY.