Advent Star( the light of the Child).-3.0

# Light of the Child.advent reflection
Perhaps,this is the best time of the year--> Christmas!
And one of my favorite part of it is the advent season.
One of his blessing is the journey in loving and being excited to meet her family.
The Lord is just so good for me to know her and how she just came along to my life. She is a gift from the Lord,it never really cross my mind to be in love with Bai but all along what it did was crossing my heart.As a gift,i see the goodness and the Love of the Lord tru her.

Also this time,it would be a different season for me that the Lord is so bold and exciting me to journey with him this advent. He wants me to see the journey to the advent star, the Child Jesus.
* 2 things he wants me to journey.
That is to be a Missionary couple someday and to be a working father to a family..
hmmmm. this kinda tough and well hard things to answer and lived on.
as i pray on, let it your will to be done not mine Lord. and He showed me the Image of our Mother Mary with the angel Gabriel.
Perhaps our Obedience to GOD really make things outdone. Our obedience is such a big respond to Love the Lord beyond our understanding..
Thats why this advent for me is a journey to the child Jesus. to his light will i see why i am made and why am i still here..

praying and discerning.

[Love+ Grace]

Advent Star( the light of the Child).-2.0

#The Greatest Love of All

for the record, as far as i remember,The Last time that i really cry hard was during the last part of my training as a missionary( AIP2006). Where ive cried with lots and lots of tears. not just tears of joy but mainly tears of happiness bcoz of a simple and awesome moments with the Lord. where the Lord is just so near.
this year(oct.2011) ,it happened again .
*Amoroso family (Home away from Home)
i lived in a Couple's For Christ family in baguio. tito bong,tita mary,amjiel and hanna.im blessed for such loving and generous family.
ive stayed in a room on the attic part of the house(one of the best house ive stayed for such interior and simplicity).
well i always take time to spend to them tru meals and chatting hours. so blessed to lived with the family.
every prayer time of mine in the morning, i was the only one left in the house for they already left for school and work.

*His word and Love- [I first Love you.]

i always take time to pray in such calm and quite room. thanking the Lord for such a gift of Life.
on my prayer time that morning, i sense the nearness of the Lord.From that moment on,i just close my eyes and so happy to have that moment, what made me to really cry was when the Lord simply whisper to me and he said
[ i first Love you evit ]
..for an hour... i was in a moment of grace and abundance of love with the Lord... my reply was just " Lord, im not worthy....Thank you.thank you..thank you.. my Lord,.my king,, my Father...thank you Lord".

He first Love us. and he love us beyond our time and understanding.


[Love+Grace]

Advent Star( the light of the Child).-1.0

{somehow i miss this blogger page of mine.been travelling alot in my area for the past 3 months. where the Lord used and showed me his people and his majesty in such bold and unwavering mountains of faith. time is so fast like a blink of an eye but what happens during those scenes always mark a life of fullness with the Lord. Blessed be the name of Lord forever!}

On and off of Time
tito felix never fails to guide and to remind me of what it is to Love the Lord. of what it is to serve and share Time to people.
part of my learning through his wisdom is this.
- Our life can be so ironic.cooking meals takes an hour but eating it takes 10mins. you construct a building takes 6 months but blowing it up takes 30sec. earning P00,000 takes 30 days but paying your bills takes 2 sec. However, Life is so blessed too. its amazing that a 1sec smack on the Cheek can make your day.. a 5sec glimpse of your Love can make your week.a 10 sec Hug can take your 1 year of pain away. and a simple Prayer can make all things possible. that is somehow why we have time.

it did silent me when tito share to me this.ive come to my reflection and ask myself to what had happen to my time with the Lord and to his people. and all those things flashes on infront of me. so ive said " yeah, such on and off time for you Lord. thank you for using me and blessing me"

as Pastor Rick say's “The best use of life is love. The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now.”

time for me ticks like the beating of our hearts.we ought to share every beat of it.
- [Love+Grace]

built

" was made strong by the hands of the Almighty" -B.M

the good news

the life long mission of the young generation is to be the Good News to the nations!

Bring Christ!

Love+

[ even though im asleep,my heart is awake. and i remain faithful for my Father's sake] - Love+Grace

i am love

"You... were created to be loved. So for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation, not the other way around... Living unloved is like clipping a bird's wing and removing its ability to fly... A bird is not defined by being grounded but by his ability to fly. Remember this, humans are defined not by their limitations, but by the intentions I have for them; not by what they seem to be, but by everything it means to be created in my image. Love is NOT the limitation; love is the flying. I AM love. "
— William P. Young (The Shack)

Send me Lord,I will Go!

Months did somehow bothers me on decisions that will change my life to anew.
resigning of fulltime work as such.
Then settling down in my hometown. Maybe do some business,take a masters for my degree,work on a corp and et al on make some money and die.
Im concerned of my Madear of whom i am responsible for since my younger sis and older bro is working abroad. I ask the Lord in a week time.
One monday as we are on a recollection, the speaker share to us of how to keep up with GOD amidst the busyness around.I close my eyes and ask the Lord of my 3 main questions recently.Indeed He answered me that time.
In terms of Madear, GOD's answer to me was - [ Go and talk to her ].
After that i ask permission of my leader. a 3 day leave for family matters.And i was given 5 days instead to really have the time with Madear and Dianne. before i leave manila that time,my prayer was "Send me Lord, I will GO"{Isaiah6:8)
It was a wonderful trip to leyte and to our home..
while we visit Padear's grave,i saw Madear praying with 3 other old prayer woman in that town. right there Padear comforted me of my worries to Madear.
after our visit we did talk and greeted each other.
To my surprise of how they relate with,concern of my life and affirm me of i am doing in my missionary work.
For the first time, i heard them happy and supporting me of the vocation im choosing.
My Family affirms me of the mission the Lord bless me. such as i was taught that i am to be the source of unity in the family, but this time it was My Family who unites me to GOD. They offered me to GOD's mission.
The 5 days was just a surprise for me! The Lord has a bigger plan, we only see the glimpse of that plan.This time anew excitement and privileged to Glorify the Lord more.
"Send me Lord,I will GO!"

OLDER But COLDER. Cattski Espina

Here's one of my favorite lifeblogs via blogspot... her page did alot of inspiration to me and the to cebuanos. kudos to you CATTSKI ESPINA..

GOD bless you more sa grascia ug gugma sa Ginoo!

OLDER BUT NOT COLDER

A year ago, a couple of weeks before my birthday, I had a Jerry Maguire moment. I heard voices in my head. And, I’m not kidding, I remember I was close to considering it a slight case of schizophrenia. I couldn’t sleep, and as I laid motionless the voices kept going. The words got clearer and louder. So I decided to just get up, and write it all down. My own bunch of life’s instructions that was, as told by those weird voices one lucky night. I’m reminded about it now since in 45 minutes, I turn a year older. And I mean “OOOLDEER”. So I’m celebrating this moment by revisiting that post, I edited it a little bit. So here it is. Happy birthday to me! It’s a long way to go for this piece of work (ME) to be finished. Maybe that’s why I don’t feel old at all.


LET GO by Cattski Espina

(I wrote it in all-caps, hey, I was just following instructions, remember?)

LET GO.

THE LONG LIST OF GOOD STUFF ABOUT YOU CAN BE ERASED WITH JUST ONE BAD THING IN A SNAP. LET GO AND WORK ON YOURSELF INSTEAD AND HOPE THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE JUST MIGHT START A NEW LIST. TRY NOT TO RUIN IT THIS TIME. LET GO AND START AGAIN.

LET GO OF YOUR EGO. YES, YOU ARE A UNIQUE AND DISTINCT INDIVIDUAL BUT YOU’RE JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. IT’S A GIVEN THAT YOU’RE BETTER AT WHAT YOU DO THAN OTHERS BUT OTHERS ARE ALSO BETTER THAN YOU. OTHERS WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN YOU. SO DON’T GET AHEAD OF YOURSELF. YOU DON’T HAVE THAT MUCH TO PROVE.

LET GO.

THERE’S ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING. LET GO. ACCEPT THAT YOU SIMPLY CAN’T PLEASE EVERYBODY. IN FACT, THERE’S A BIG CHANCE SOME PEOPLE REALLY HATE YOUR GUTS AND THEY JUST WANT TO PUT YOU DOWN, OR WORSE, WANT YOU DEAD. DON’T BLAME THEM IF THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND YOU. WE’RE ALL WIRED DIFFERENTLY, SOME PEOPLE RUB AS THE WRONG WAY OR VICE VERSA. THAT’S JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS - NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT.

LET GO. BE HUMBLE. REMEMBER THAT RESPECT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE DEMANDED, IT IS GAINED. SO SHUT UP. TAKE A CORNER. AND STAY THERE. TIME OUT! TAKE A STEP BACK AND NEXT TIME YOU GET A CHANCE, REMEMBER TO LOVE MORE…, CARE MORE, AND LIVE MORE… PRACTICE COMPASSION. TRY TO MAKE IT UNCONDITIONAL. LET GO. AND AS SOON AS YOURE BACK ON YOUR FEET, EMBRACE LIFE. APPRECIATE THE GOOD THINGS.

LET GO. HEAL. DON’T TRY TO KILL YOURSELF. THE GREATEST ANSWER TO YOUR MISFORTUNE IS TO LIVE LIFE AS PASSIONATELY AS POSSIBLE. TRY NOT TO PICK ON THOSE WHO CAN NOT GRASP THE CONCEPT OF LIVING PASSIONATELY, INSTEAD, HOPE THAT YOU’LL INSPIRE THEM TO DISCOVER IT FOR THEMSELVES.

LET GO. SOME PEOPLE THINK THEY’RE DOING YOU A FAVOR BY GETTING INVOLVED IN YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. YOU CAN BE ANGRY BUT WHAT WILL THAT DO. DON’T BE ANGRY EVEN IF THEY JUST RUINED IT FOR YOU. LET IT GO. IT’S OKAY. YOU SIMPLY CAN NOT CONTROL THE THINGS AROUND YOU.

LET GO OF YOUR ADDICTIONS. STOP SMOKING. STOP DRINKING. SELF DESTRUCTION AIN’T COOL. STOP PUNISHING YOURSELF. STOP LOATHING YOURSELF. STOP BLAMING YOURSELF. WHAT’S DONE IS DONE. WAKE UP AND BRUSH IT OFF. LET GO, FORGIVE YOURSELF, FORGIVE THEM, AND MOVE ON.

LET IT GO. LET IT ALL GO. CRY IT ALL OUT IF YOU HAVE TO - WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH. CRY FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE HURT YOU AND WHO DID YOU WRONG - UNINTENTIONALLY OR OTHERWISE. BUT MOSTLY, CRY FOR THE PEOPLE YOU’VE HURT. CRY FOR THEIR PAIN, ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. AND THEN FORGIVE YOURSELF. FORGIVE YOURSELF EVEN IF OTHERS CAN’T FORGIVE YOU, YET.

LET GO THEN STOP CRYING. BREATHE.

YOU HAVE A GOOD HEART. USE IT. DON’T LET YOUR ANGER GUIDE YOU. STOP SULKING. GO GET SOME EXERCISE, RUN IN FIELDS OR GO TO THE GYM AND RELEASE YOUR ANGER THROUGH YOUR SWEAT. GET BACK ON YOUR YOGA PRACTICE, SO YOU CAN CLEAR YOUR CHAOTIC MIND, AGAIN AND AGAIN. LET GO. STOP THINKING TOO MUCH. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. BREATHE. DON’T NURTURE THE PAIN. IT’S USELESS. FEEL THE LOVE IN YOUR HEART. IT’S STILL THERE. YOU KNOW IT. SO UNRAVEL. SHARE. SHINE.

IF A GOOD SOUL COMES ALONG, APPRECIATE HIM OR HER. DON’T QUESTION AND ENVY. DON’T FAIL. IF SOMEONE GIVES YOU TOO MUCH, APPRECIATE IT AND DON’T FEEL GUILTY THAT YOU CAN’T GIVE ENOUGH IN RETURN. ALLOW KINDNESS INTO YOUR LIFE. EXPERIENCE IT. LIVE IT. AND DON’T DENY IT.

LET GO OF YOUR FEARS AND FACE THEM HEAD ON. TO LIVE IN FEAR IS NOT TO LIVE AT ALL, WE ALL KNOW THAT. DON’T WORRY. WORRY DRAGS YOU DOWN PRETTY BAD. IT MAKES YOU WEAK. SO DON’T.

LET GO OF YOUR SLIGHT SICKNESS CALLED REGRET. YOUR MISTAKES BROUGHT ABOUT A BUNCH OF LESSONS. AND YOU LEARNED. AND YOU’RE STILL LEARNING. AND YOU GAINED. AND YOU’RE STILL GAINING. NO REGRETS.

LET GO, TAKE A BREAK. TAKE STOCK. AND START AGAIN. GIVE YOUR HEART OUT TO EVERYONE WHO NEEDS IT. SMILE. STAY BEAUTIFUL. AND ENJOY BEING CALM FOR ONCE.

TALK BUT DON’T BE LOUD. SAY WHAT YOU MEAN, AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. BE SENSITIVE TO OTHERS. BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR WORDS. BITE YOUR TONGUE WHEN YOU’RE ANGRY. DON’T LOSE CONTROL. BE SUBTLE WHEN NECESSARY BUT STRAIGHTFORWARD IF NEED BE. TRUST YOURSELF MORE THAN YOU TRUST OTHERS. MOST OF ALL, BE HONEST. BE HONEST TO YOUR OWN TRUTH.

LET GO. TRY NOT TO CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT SAY AND THINK ABOUT YOU. JUDGEMENTS AND OPINIONS ARE PART OF LIFE. AND YOU ARE ENTITLED TO YOUR OWN. ACCEPT THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR IRRESPONSIBILITY. FEEL FREE TO BE HUMBLED AND TO BE EMBARRASSED. IT’S OKAY. YOU SIMPLY NEEDED A WAKE UP CALL. AND HERE YOU ARE TAKING IT, AND YOU’RE NOT HANGING UP. LISTEN. LISTEN ONCE AND FOR ALL.

STOP BELIEVING THAT PEOPLE DON’T LOVE YOU. OR THAT THEY ARE NOT CAPABLE OF LOVING YOU. THEY DO. BUT YOU’RE NOT LETTING THEM. YOU PUSH THEM AWAY. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. LOVE THE REST NEXT. YOU FIRST, OTHERS NEXT, AND ONLY IN THAT ORDER.

LET GO. LET GO AND WAIT. LEARN TO BE PATIENT. CONTROL YOUR RESTLESSNESS. DON’T BE ANXIOUS. ALLOW THINGS TO FALL INTO PLACE. RELAX. THE UNIVERSE IS ON YOUR SIDE. LET TIME PASS BUT DON’T WASTE IT. USE IT WELL. DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE. MAKE MIRACLES OUT OF YOUR MISERY. WHO KNOWS, JUST LIKE THAT, YOUR MISERY WILL BE OUT OF YOU.

LET GO. AND WHEN YOU’RE BETTER, TAKE CARE OF YOUR PRIDE. IT IS BOTH A GIFT AND A CURSE. IF YOU’RE NOT CAREFUL, IT WILL EXPLODE, UPFRONT AND IN YOUR FACE.

WHEN YOU’RE BETTER, DO VOLUNTEER WORK. GO BACK TO THE SPECIAL KIDS WHO NEED YOU. TEACH THEM ART. SING THEM SONGS. MAKE THEIR PARENTS HAPPY. USE YOUR ENERGY ON POSITIVE THINGS.

LET GO IF YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY.

FORGET ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO TOOK YOU WRONG. IT WAS PROBABLY YOUR FAULT. ACCEPT THAT YOU PUT YOURSELF IN THAT POSITION. AND THAT IT DOESN’T MATTER NOW. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU’RE LETTING GO, LETTING BE, AND LETTING LOVE TAKE OVER. ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE HAPPY. PUT THAT SMILE BACK ON YOUR FACE. LOOK AT THE MIRROR AND LOVE WHAT YOU SEE.

LET GO. SLEEP IT OFF. FOR NOW. GIVE YOUR MIND A REST. A RE-BOOT. TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY. ANOTHER CHANCE TO RE-CONNECT. ANOTHER DAY TO LIVE. AND LOVE. TO LIVE MORE AND LOVE MORE.

LET GO. PRAY. AND JUST LET GO. YOU STILL DESERVE TO FLY.

Me Ultimu Adios

Me Ultimu Adios

- hahaha..retrieve!!!2008 despidida video for Wanner ...

LOVING GOD AND KEEPING HIS WORD

More than 10 years ago, email was the craze. Everybody had an email address and forwarded messages that filled the limited mailboxes. Nowadays, email has been replaced by social networking sites which offer much more, in real time. One can now post continuous messages. One hears a blow-by-blow account of someone else’s thoughts and escapades. A plethora of words flood cyberspace, not to mention the billions of text messages (SMS) that send telecom companies in the Philippines laughing their way to the banks.
But words are cheap (though not quite in the Philippines where a text message costs a P1.50 or more). Words have become so commonplace. We hear them, read them, text them, twit them and google them.
But in many cases, we don’t keep them, for one simple reason. Words have been truncated from their source and ultimate object — the person, who is definitely bigger, more noble and more important than the words he or she can utter, or the words that can be uttered about him or her.
Curiously, the good news today would have us put back that intimate link between word and person. The words that one utters stand for the truth about the person, the truth within the person, and the truth that is the person. Words, taken apart from the person as subject or object, are just letters put together,maybe “full of sound and fury, [but] signifying nothing.”
The core of the good news has to do with the Divine Word, uttered from the beginning, the Word become Flesh, second person of the Trinity. Word and Person are intimately united in Christ. As Word of God, He is one with the Father, and was true to His nature as God, true to the Father.
We are called to the same oneness and intimacy and to be incorporated in Christ so as to become sharers in this Trinitarian life and mystery. But we need to do our part. “If you love me, you will keep my Word.” Fr. Chito Dimaranan, SDB

Reflection Question:
Am I careful with the words that I speak about a person?

Lord, tame my tongue so that I may never hurt anyone with the words that I speak.

No Greater Love

Jesus said to his disciples:
“As the Father loves me, so I also love you.
Remain in my love.
If you keep my commandments, you will remain in my love,
just as I have kept my Father’s commandments
and remain in his love.

“I have told you this so that my joy might be in you
and your joy might be complete.
This is my commandment: love one another as I love you.
No one has greater love than this,
to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.
You are my friends if you do what I command you.
I no longer call you slaves,
because a slave does not know what his master is doing.
I have called you friends,
because I have told you everything I have heard from my Father.
It was not you who chose me, but I who chose you
and appointed you to go and bear fruit that will remain,
so that whatever you ask the Father in my name he may give you.
This I command you: love one another.” - Jn 15:9-17

Good morning World!
A lot of things may happen in a day.Usually we plan out things first time in a day,that's in our bed,our table,kitchen,garden& in our pace. But most of the things happens in a day is not based on our planner.Most of the things really surprise us.
At the end of the day in our beds and room as we take rest, we just simply surrender what had happen and thank GOD for all those things.

I believe its the same things in the totality of LOVE.
Most of the people around us,we ought them to Love. Especially, Friends and Family.But when a test comes in our relationship, we forget what is to love. We then we want is to hate.Our for such a person then be wash away by our hate and selfish decision to them. The verse above reminds me of the Love of Christ to me and you.
That he is our Master.more than that he offer himself to us a Friend.
He lay down his life to us in such a kind of a way of Friend.

Friends always guide and support each other especially in tough times.
Christ reminds us that when you longer see a friend into a friend,when you see a friend to the perspective point of an enemy, when all of your trust and love to that friend is gone,when your friend became your sudden foe. Christ commandment to us is this

LOVE ONE ANOTHER

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i believe this is the kind of love that this generation always share.Amidst of whats happening in the world right now.And we must try To Be Loving than to be righteous.
And all of this LOVE is meant to give glory to the father more than to our friends.

Discernment

Discernment is the ability to distinguish right from wrong, true from false—to "test everything; hold fast what is good. Abstain from every form of evil" (1Thess 5:21-22)

R.T

Reality ends,Truth is forever..

time

Time to give glory to You. Time, I need to spend more time, just a little more time to spend with You.

I really have no good excuses, you've given me the breath of life. The least I could do is sip this cup with you, Drink up your love alleviate the strife.

1

You've got one life to live, but one life to give

Us

whatever happens,its only one world after all.

cebu

its been a milestone on how God blessed this province.Victories to faithfullness.

no words can state on the excitement i see on this province.Like the child,faithful and loving.

im a witness of its fruits...Unique and Selfworth taste fruits.

servants to missionaries....im affirm that this Land is the heartbeat of this country..


I will multiply your seed as the stars of the sky, and will give to your seed all these lands. In your seed will all the nations of the earth be blessed.Genesis 26:4


"we attracts Christ Love each time we appear unseen"-E.W

Endurance Jan 11, '08 1:22 PM

Let us not be weary in doing good, for we will reap in due season, if we don’t give up.Galatian 6:9

T.L Jan 11, '08 1:31 PM

its in the end that we start to fully Love our Loved.

star

Nahitimbakuwas ang akong panan-aw

Sa kalit nga pagdailos

Sa imong patadyong

Daw ang labtik sa pasol

Tadlas nianang nag-ugdo nga kabilin

Diha sa puti mong hulagway.

Kaayong pagkaladlad

Sa duha ka biyoos, nanuyhakaw

Diha sa kabuntagon.

Kaayong ikinto ibabaw sa akong balikhaw!

Kaayong isinggit paghinay!

Kay samtang nagpanglingi ka

Kon wa bay nakaambit sa imong pagpabaya,

Nagbingkil ang mga dahon,

Gitukmod sa lunhaw ang laya

Aron motipon sa yuta;

Nasaag ang huyuhoy,

Miong-ong ang akong mga mata

Ilawom sa gamot sa kahoy;

Midailos pag samot ang patadyong

Napasapasa ang imong kaanindot,

Gisapnay ka sa mga balud,

Gisapupo ka sa tinubdan

Sa kahayag ug anino,

Gitinguha ka sa mga lusay

Aron himoong gapasan

Sa ilang alimungaw,

Gihulad kang way kaindig

Sa mga tinguha sa daman ug damgo,

Ang imong pusod garbo sa Ludabi,

Ang imong kiaykiay lunsayng pinay;

Gipasangil ko sa langit

Ang akong himaya

Kay sa paghagtos sa pasol

Gibinlan mog taga ang akong kasingkasing.

dreaming awake.

Gugmang di na ba gayud mahibalik?
Ohh. gugmang gikalimtan sa hingpit!
Gugmang sa maka usa atong gisawhan
Gugmang sa damggo na Balang..
Ikaw nga pinalangga..
Dura on ta pag usab
Ang Atong Gisawhan
Tumang kalipay'ng hilabihan
Ang mga Panumpa
Nga daw saksi ang buwan
Sa gugmang di mabanlas
Bisan sa bundak sa ulan.
Ohh.. di ko gayud igsapayan..
Gugmang naay kalimut..ha..

Maong handumon ko na lng
Mga bituun sa kalangitan
Diin Tiunay'ng gugma
Oh langit atong gisawhan
Handumon ko na lng...

Ohh.. di ko gayud igsapayan..
Gugmang naay kalimut.
Ug usa nako ka damggo
Di ko buut mag higmata
Makig kuyug ako kanimo
Bisan kong ako urumon pa

kung ang gugma
kon kanimo daw sama na lng
sa irong namaghug (aw aw)sa buwan(sa buwan)
Di ko na makab - ot (bisag ipiyong ning mga mata)
Gugma oh.. Gugma ..Damgguhun ko na lng..(damgguhun ko na lng)

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-why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?-

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart...

Life of Brevity Aug 25, '09 11:17 AM

:(Somehow I always seem to do the very thing I hate.And I can't find the strength to change.Well it feels like I'm getting in Your way.And now I'm living with the pain of knowing that I let You down :)"Lord You've, You've seen my darkest hour, Still You know my hearts desire"

O'clock Sep 9, '09 6:05 PM

from the beginning to the end.
in a breath to a motion
in the mind and in the action
to eat and to waste.
to ride and to go down
to open and to close
to continue and to endure
to sleep and to wake up.

"If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right."
- Noy Tupas

i Oct 11, '09 11:26 AM

“To say ‘I love you’ one must know first how to say the ‘I’.” ~ Ayn Rand from (The Fountainhead)

A Path with you. Nov 5, '09 3:55 AM

“Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore, a warrior must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if he feels that he should not follow it, he must not stay with it under any conditions. His decision to keep on that path or to leave it must be free of fear or ambition. He must look at every path closely and deliberately. There is a question that a warrior has to ask, mandatorily: ‘Does this path have a heart?’”

~ Carlos Castaneda from The Wheel of Time

LIFE(bio.2090) Nov 24, '09 3:53 AM

The amazing thing about the human body is it has 100 trillion cells and 90% of them are not
human cells. They’re fungi and bacteria, microorganisms … the thing that makes us human is
not human. So within us is, basically, the back story of life on earth right to that first original
cell 40 million centuries ago, and if you could, for a moment, stop and feel what is happening in
your body, there are 6 septillion things going on at the same time – that’s a 6 with 24 zeroes
after it – going on, right this instant as you sit in your chair and then in the next instant.
Within 10 seconds, 100 more things have happened than in all the stars and planets and
asteroids in the known universe, in your body. And that is called life.

– Paul Hawken, Author, Environmentalist, Entrepreneur

Lifted Light!

a day that appears that my heart wanders
I really dont know why i am not contented
of the test and peace
that came from above

I obey and accept then
a destiny that i never dream
thats why now i will pursue

my beloved
of my search of the learn that
i exist of its fullness of the tip of the world
where we stand and breath

i did notice that
a spark of light that is much brighter than the rays of the cosmos.
i offer to you my love
of which is not of a worldly heat

and of my only treasure in this world
that waits of the wisdom of the key to my heart
then there i never expect that our hearts spirits been lifted
raise up to eternity.

messenger tru pain and happiness

DANCING WITH GOD:

When I meditated on the word Guidance
I kept seeing 'dance' at the end of the word.
I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.
When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
The movement doesn't flow with the music,
and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,
both bodies begin to flow with the music.
One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing lightly in one direction or another.
It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
The dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person
and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
My eyes drew back to the word Guidance.
When I saw 'G: I thought of God, followed by 'u' and 'i'.
'God, 'u' and 'i' dance'
God, you, and I dance.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust
that I would get guidance about my life.
Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God's blessings
and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.
"May you abide in God as God
abides in you".
Dance together with God, trusting God to lead
and to guide you through each season of your life.

And I Hope You Dance!!
Let's Dance...

pastmultiply blogs: insights with a breath

a crazy little thing called,what!?(Apr 1, '11 4:58 AM)
for everyone
it never really cross my Mind,but all it did was crossing my heart. -

Time grows to be pure Gold.

"Time just go by just right and fast,what matter's most of how we use and journey with time".


hmmmmm, i guess this is one of the message i received on the FB chat room.When i was so busy thinking of a project that already runs out my time due to its deadline. While i was thinking of my deliverable that is suppose to be done a week ago,greeting old and its a been a while friends from a far,while madear always check on me and always ask on when will i be home,while the kids ask me of when will we see each other again, when the night comes and in a jiffy i see the sun sets so bright, when alot of things just happen and i already forgot when and where was that.

Indeed time always surprise.I may not notice it but time just taught me a been there and done that lesson.One of these lessons may just be so hard to be learn. My head sometimes done agree of the lessons but to some it all up,it teaches me a mark in the heart and in the head.That when things is just to accept and so difficult to understand, you just have to decide to receive what it gives you.You may not like it because it is not on your list as one beautiful and good thing but it indeed will make you grow.
Rene is a very close friend of mind,even though he's on the other side of the globe. We were the one that you may call "kick-ass" boys on the school.Rude,dirty ,sarcastic,mob-star,chick repellant,bully and et al. almost got jail for a gang war.got C+ on the record of good moral.denied by our faculty and just enjoying the spotlight as bad boys in our school. As we graduated from high school,we planned a lot of things.Futurama's like being the best musician in the country,lots of richness on a business,shiny and expensive cars,Hot chicks on the side and a lot more.

But as we enroll in a prestige college one morning, the professor just shake his head to us saying "Sorry boys,but its not your place to study here"..after that we just laugh out to his reply.instead we eat alot of food outside and call it as a celebration of the day,like the usual. weeks pass and were on each others way to go to college. I enroll to a institute that caters my joys of being a independent student,Yeah! no uniforms,skeds on my time,girls around our classrooms,no proper looks and a lot of School of Rock cliche.While my friend already enter that prestige school.
Years pass a lot did happen to both of our lives.But i never did expect that along the way,he also come to meet the good things in life.i was surprise of what goodness happens to him.He did right enjoy the fullness of his life.

Time just go by so fast.... What's important that ive realize is that grow to become better people to its best.... And what's important is we come closer to GOD before we die and be gone in this world.

to you my friend Rene, a prayer and a gratified friendship.

LOVE+GRACE

Man and his Heart

Jeremiah 17:5-10

Thus says the LORD:
Cursed is the man who trusts in human beings,
who seeks his strength in flesh,
whose heart turns away from the LORD.
He is like a barren bush in the desert
that enjoys no change of season,
But stands in a lava waste,
a salt and empty earth.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose hope is the LORD.
He is like a tree planted beside the waters
that stretches out its roots to the stream:
It fears not the heat when it comes,
its leaves stay green;
In the year of drought it shows no distress,
but still bears fruit.
More tortuous than all else is the human heart,
beyond remedy; who can understand it?
I, the LORD, alone probe the mind
and test the heart,
To reward everyone according to his ways,
according to the merit of his deeds.

Battle Cry of LENT

40 days of fasting and praying maybe new to me as i take it seriously to this time of my life right now.Maybe my Age=27 is quite challenge to do and to love this offering to Lent. so far,so good. And so far,GOD is very good.
Lent for me is always a victorious celebration of what happen a 10thousands years ago.
Jesus Christ our Lord already conquered the battle! And for us and me its always a cliche that we too shout this Lent's battle cry . i shout it in 3 battle cries.

First: Prayer = as John Bosco says "Pray as you work,Work as you pray". that wherever we are and whatever we are doin, we are in the posture of Prayer. The best prayer Jesus taught us is the "OUR FATHER".
praying the OUR FATHER teaches us 1.to see GOD as ABBA. As a father,he knows exactly what we want and we desire. That's why it is right to be just honest and true in our prayers because a Father knows what his Son really is,even from a far.
2.It also teaches us to Submit to him.Above of all what we pray we must accept and submit to his answers which is the following a.Yes b.No c.Yes,Yes,Yes d. No,No,No, e.yes,but not now f. THY will be done.

Second: Fasting: to see GOD as a provident father.
i remember a brother share to us of whats the difference between being Hungry and Hunger.i reply to my sit mate in such a humor saying " of course,the spelling.haha". But as i reflect on his question, i did somehow feel being hungry and much more feel the Hunger. Being hungry is when you want what suffices you,hunger is when you wait of the things that suffices you. I then answer that GOD is good, bcoz He never let us being hungry and hunger ever since,he just provide in his perfect time.
To fast is to hunger while hungry of the Love of Christ. this also means to share his love to our much more hungry and hunger brothers and sisters.

Third: to be Generous : that he is a compassionate and loving father.
above all what we have,i believe we can give more. Giving ourselves to difficult people and loving them beyond what we taught we only can.to love them, is to forgive them and to accept and pray for them. i believe these kinda people needs more of what our share of Christ love.we should be available to be generous to our poor brethren.We always seek to love and pray for them beyond of what our limits can stretch. just us our Lord Christ Jesus stretch out his very hands on the cross.

And in our battle cry in these Lent may we experience GOD more.


- GUGMA+GRASYA

Brother Dear

"I surrender everything to you...
I declare to the world how Great You are...
Around the world in 80 days x mark the spot... :(
I had fight a good fight ;( " - tony wael jr.


Perhaps these are your last status on FB my bro. You will be again going on a journey long away from home. Traveling afar again as you work on and by the seas.
I guess 10 months went well as a very good vacation.Indeed!
May i sum it all up with just these words - Missing Love,Truth vs Lies,separation,Denial,broke-up,wander!,HURTing,questions and questions never end,someone to tell it to,someone new, New beliefs(SFC clp,yeah at last),searching,praying,believing,raising and worshiping,enjoying new friends(brosNsis),loving again,and then missing work,apply again, waiting for a call for work,finally travelNwork again,missing home again,living the life.
hmmm,quite long journey as you continue on....

I know what had happen to you and i know that it is not easy at all. Hope i did help you in your journey as well. I honor you for being a brother, kuya and somehow like father Sr. i thank you for your love and care.Ive always pray to GOD that he will take good care and bless you more in your lifetime. And i thank GOD for blessing me for such a loving brother.you are always in my prayers.

i love you bro.

"A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity."
Proverbs 17:17

in health and sickness

its been 48 hours of sleep and resting to bed as i open my eyes so far.feeling kinda new when i woke up then surprise by how fast time just go by. As far as i remember my body did feel weak with cough and headache along with it. My heart and mind on the other hand contradict to go on.But ive decided to just rest.
Alone in the room makes me more weak and lonesome.My fellow brothers in the room got up early for the daily missionary work.I would like to credit for their love and care as they close the door and went by.
Pray...Pray...Pray
Rest....Rest..rest..
Sleep...Sleep...

Taking up some medicine then alot of water.And so far what ive only ate for the daily was 5 bread and 3 juices! huhuhu..Maybe you can relate with this when you too get sick and you only feed up suck meal. What's important is that i have Rested.

GOD+nothing

Time does goes by.In a blink of an eye for what we see does goes by.
Ive been to a high school homecoming reunion last december2010.After 10 years of not seeing each other(some though still on line),not knowing what hows who and what and where is she or he now. Finally we will meet again. I remember the line in our school hymn that says {forever in our hearts will stay fond memories of you, our dear St.Catherine}. Thus, we just enjoy the day chatting and celebrating each other's presence. A lot of things happen that day which includes a lot of food and eating.Fun,fun,fun,fun,et al...then we play a game that has a consequence for the losers.. We the boys did lose at the first game{a guessing game} which buy us at showing our undies as a loser's prize.Well,the boys did take on the second game!And{hahaha} we did win! Then the ladies crawl below our legs as their consequence!
That was really a fun and inspiring weekend at the beach..As people goes home in the evening,some{they called themselves as Survivors.lols} stayed to continue the not so miss each other chit-chat...midnight and dawn joins and still the survivors stay standing merriness of around. Even some the people there has a work in the morning,still the party goes on..As i go home early, in the morning. I just smiled to the stories that reunion inspires me.People do change for he is growing old but what makes him grow from the past still remains.
As we{wael's] welcome the new year-2011,im just excited and happy for ive reach to the year. Alot of things may happen,people and people may add up to my life. Life goes as i am certain! And time just goes by with the life that we have right now.
Time just go by as LIfe goes on,,,....Life goes on...
one of the best question ive come to ponder from the very start of the year is this.
-----[GOD+nothing]-----
If?
in our(your) lifetime, GOD is the only one who will come.
above what youve waiting,what youve wanting,what youve dreaming,what youve doing very hard,what youve enduring from the very start,what youve planning in your life?!

I was at awe and silent for this question in an hour.And even up to now
(jan.24.0200pm).

A week past by and indeed it is only GOD who answer me saying "I will not be silent"

Life is just to short, its only what youve done or the LOrd that will last!
Padayun Igsoun..